Wow. I have not written in so long I am overwhelmed.... Where do I start? Just the facts I guess. I got some CDs by Dr.Wayne Dyer about manifesting. They gave a very clear and easy process accompanied by meditation sound CDs. The sounds are from tuning folks that have a mantra they are equated to.  Basically his process is similar to other ones I have heard except 2 important additions. 1.To hold your visions in your mind with the feeling of already having these things. Making declarative statements that begin with "I Am..." Then keep them in your mind as you fall asleep. Thus sending your orders to your subconscious mind to begin working on as you are asleep... That magical time when all things are possible. 2. The incorporation of meditation, visualization and declarative thought. Here you listen to the meditation sounds while focusing on what you want as though you already have them. Then you send them up into the heavens on an out breath while accepting them into your reality on the in breath. Always starting your wish with "I Am...."

I began to work on 3 main things I wanted to bring into my life. 1. Is a partner who I care for and trust. Someone who can I can relate to spiritually and romantically. Someone who helps me to make better choices and consciously improve my life and those around me. 2. That I fully become the working successful actress and story teller that I was put here to be. 3. I wanted to get out of LA for a minute preferably on a project.

Shortly after I began this practice I booked a play out of town. It was actually just at the base of a national park that I had always wanted to go to. On the show I became close with a cast mate. We had some bonding adventures. He has helped me to raise my awareness on a lot of issues I have let fall to the waist side in the last few years. I don't know if anything will come romantically (too soon to tell) but I feel very blessed to have this new person in my world. During the play I had an extremely challenging scene with in a scene. I basically had to beg for my daughters life to be spared and in the end pull a sword on my husband and threaten his life. It was from a Greek tragedy thus written in ancient text. I have always know I was meant to be a performer and I have done pretty good up till now. I have a lot of stage time under my belt. However, this show made me believe with out a doubt that I can bring it to every performance every time. Because that is exactly what I did all 9 shows and it was a difficult ass scene.  I have a new level of self belief that is living strong inside me. I think it will serve me well in the near future. With this random miracle of a show I got all three desires: the companion,  the courage and the vacation.

Now that I have taken this practice to the next level,  I feel I am in a position where I am utterly confident and %100 behind my abilities.  I can't wait to report with all the other amazing things I co-create with my higher power. I feel the love and guidance from my Angeles and I welcome their assistance. I am grateful for all my blessings and awakenings...  And I humbly ask for more!

Wow this is pretty awesome!

It has been a long time since I wrote in this blog. But so many things have been happening lately I feel the need to report and document them.  I have been working very hard to "Back Door" my way into the entertainment business. You see I am an aspiring Actress, Writer and Film maker. I was very discouraged by the lack of my ability to break into the industry. I know I am talented but was having a hard time getting others to see it and want to take a chance on me.  I kept hearing it's all about who you know. So I decided it would be my number one priority to meet people. I had an opportunity arise to work at a production company that specialized in Commercials. I had reached my limit with the service industry. I literally couldn't stand the thought of serving another drink to another drunken jerk. I had become bitter bartender!  I started praying for something else to arise.   So, when the opportunity arose to work in my field and meet people I jumped at it!  I started at the front desk answering phones then went freelance and developing good relationships with countless producers and directors. Unfortunately to do this I had to put auditioning on hold for a while. I decided to focus on networking and writing. I  just knew that in a year or so I would somehow be able to jump back into acting. At the end of my year off I signed up for a job I rarely take. It was to be a runner for a low budget Movie Of The Week for a major network. I was board to tears driving all over Los Angeles and complaining about the fact that I didn't want to stay in the production side of the industry for much longer. My best friend suggested a book on tape called " Excuses Be Gone" by Dr. Wayne Dyer.   This Cd works to program the mind to get rid of all self inflected mind blocks to your success. Upon the second or third time I listened to these Cds I really noticed a shift in my world. Since watching "The Secret," I have been one to visualize but for some reason the things I really wanted didn't seem to come.   These Cds helped me to rid my self of the self sabotaging thinking habits I have unknowingly carried with me my entire life! So here's what happened-
I am again visualizing what I want but now I am very specific with the pictures I am focusing on. I started in december  picturing myself in front of two cameras. I spend a few moments and take in the bounce and the boom mic in front of me just above the cameras. I hold this image in my mind and I come back to it every time I visualize. I don't spend hours on it just a few minutes almost everyday. With in weeks a job literally falls in my lap. I am covering the front desk at the production company that I started with a year ago.  My parents recently moved to San Diego so I didn't travel east this year and subsequently I was available to cover. I was not thrilled about working the week between the holidays (Xmass and New Years) because I just wrapped on the MOW and the hours kicked my ass.  But hey, money is money and I am not one to turn down an opportunity.  While I am there, the producer says asks me if I wanted to submit for the spot they were working on. It was a national commercial for a major phone company.  It was a man on the street type of project. I submitted to the agency and I was selected to shoot. The catch was that it was a nonunion rate unless they edited you into the final piece than you got a bump to SAG rates. This spot was going to be on 2 network channels and the web so the potential to make in one day what I made the entire last year combined was definitely on the table. I shot the interview along with 60 other actors.  As I was standing on my mark waiting for them to light the shot a beam of light reflected off one of the buildings causing me to shut my eyes. As they were closed the familiar visualization I had been focusing on popped into my head. When I opened my eyes to my surprise the scenario I had been visualizing was happening in front of me!! It was EXACTLY how I had been picturing it! HOLY CRAP!  The camera placement, the bounce and the boom mic were right there where I had been picturing them in my mind. I was astonished. I didn't let it effect me too much and I went on with the shoot. There were so many actors being interviewed for this 30 sec spot I didn't expect to make the final cut but something in my gut told me I would. Low and behold when it came down to it I made it in. I now have a national commercial out on 2 major networks just the thing I need to jump start my career!!  I didn't even go to the open call. I simply was asked to submit and the rest is history. I don't know where it's going to take me but I do know that I no longer have to worry about my bank account being overdrawn. That in it's self is a miracle.
Wish me luck.
Love,
Veronica

I am happy to report that I have had an amazing week! I started the week with some guided meditations, yoga and hiking. When I begin my hikes I always say a prayer and invite any guides and angels available to please walk with me and work with me as they see fit. Monday and Tuesday when I hit the top of the trails I found myself a quiet spot and did some visualizing. I set an alarm (with a gentle alarm sound) for 10 minutes and I focused on visualizing the things I wanted to bring into my life as though I already have them. I had a difficult time focusing on Tuesday, a lot of thoughts kept intruding. I learned in Yoga that when this happens you need to acknowledge the thought and send it on its way like a cloud floating a long in the sky. I mainly focused on having an abundance of money to do the things I want this summer and on being on set. Working behind and in front of the camera.
So- I started my fist day of a commercial with a new production company on Wednesday and I got a long soooo well with the producers. I kicked ass with all my projects and was a pro on set. There is no doubt that I will be working with these ladies many more times!!! They work almost exclusively and consistently with Fox and that is pretty awesome! Did I mention that I got a raise? I am now in a higher position making more money. I couldn't be more thrilled. I booked another job for July and my one night at the bar job is no longer in jeopardy and is back to being lucrative.
Talk about a 360 turn around from two weeks ago! Hot dog! Life is good and I guarantee it is a direct result of my spiritual growth.

I am currently in the midst of a miracle

This has been a supernatural past week of my life to say the least.
I have been working on the art of attraction and alignment. I have been so impressed with the results I find they need to be documented. I work as and actress. in production and I bar tend once a week to get by. My 2 passions are acting and writing. I am currently between jobs and have a small amount of unemployment coming to me while I look for other jobs and work on my screenplay. The month of May was hard on me booking wise and money has been tight.
This past Friday I still had not received my check for unemployment and it was the third. Crap! I figured I was going to have to be late I guess, again. However, the cool thing about me is I am learning though spiritual guidance how to bring into my life the things in which I desire. I started of the week with a lot of writing and yoga in the mornings. I Incorporated guided meditations to my time in nature typically after my daily hikes. I visualized myself having more then enough and I made up silly rhymes while walking in the woods IE- Love and Joy surround me and in my heart I know I am safe, I send love to those around me, and get back prosperity in it's place." I absolutely did not know how I was going to bring the extra money I needed into my life, but I just knew with all my heart that it was coming.
So on wed I got a call from an actress I was in a film with a while ago. She wrote and was directing a commercial shooting the next day and it paid cash! She wondered if I would be interested in doing a couple scenes? I didn't even have to audition for it. Sweet. On Friday when as I was driving to the bar, my coworker asked me to cover his Sat and I said yes. He kept texting me and I was driving to work and said quit texting me I will see you in 10 minutes for my shift let's talk then. He says "didn't anyone tell you, you are not working tonight we are going down to 2 bartenders" SAY WHAT?!?!?! I was like hell no and I will be in in a minute and we can discuss. I get there and we work a system so I neither of us loose Friday by splitting the 13 hr shift in half and he giving him the latter part of Friday night off. He then goes home giving me his shift Friday as well as Sat. So I go on to work and have an excellent Friday and Devinne Saturday. Saturday was one of those fluke nights were God comes into your bar and makes miracles happen. I some how made $ 530! Some bars that is the norm, but not mine. $250 is the norm unless its playoffs. I started out Monday morning with no shifts and no auditions and half of my rent. By Sat, I had shot a commercial and make a months worth of tips in two days. BUT WAIT THERE IS MORE! I continue to pray, visualize, breath and hike each day of the weekend.
Sunday- I am having friends to grill by my pool to celebrate summer and life in general and my dear friend who is an executive assistant to a major director for Fox rolls into my BBQ. Just when I thought I had been the receiver of all the blessings I possibly could she books me on 4 days Coordinator/Assistant for a Fox Job. Kinda of a big deal. With a small day rate pay rise then what I am use to! Talk about a 7 day turn around! In 7 days I went from having virtually nothing and no idea as to how I was going to get enough to pay my rent to having shot a commercial, jackpot bar shifts, and booking a production job for fox. If that doesn't convince me that what I am doing with my energy work is absolutely paying off and real then I might as well jump off a bridge and give up. I now believe I have the power inside of me to make miracles happen and it feels amazing!
So the moral of this story is believing is sometimes more important then having. Don't get down about not having enough, get excited about receiving more then you can imagine! I can't wait to see what else happens.
Thank you for all my blessings I am humble with loving gratitude!