Wow. I have not written in so long I am overwhelmed.... Where do I start? Just the facts I guess. I got some CDs by Dr.Wayne Dyer about manifesting. They gave a very clear and easy process accompanied by meditation sound CDs. The sounds are from tuning folks that have a mantra they are equated to.  Basically his process is similar to other ones I have heard except 2 important additions. 1.To hold your visions in your mind with the feeling of already having these things. Making declarative statements that begin with "I Am..." Then keep them in your mind as you fall asleep. Thus sending your orders to your subconscious mind to begin working on as you are asleep... That magical time when all things are possible. 2. The incorporation of meditation, visualization and declarative thought. Here you listen to the meditation sounds while focusing on what you want as though you already have them. Then you send them up into the heavens on an out breath while accepting them into your reality on the in breath. Always starting your wish with "I Am...."

I began to work on 3 main things I wanted to bring into my life. 1. Is a partner who I care for and trust. Someone who can I can relate to spiritually and romantically. Someone who helps me to make better choices and consciously improve my life and those around me. 2. That I fully become the working successful actress and story teller that I was put here to be. 3. I wanted to get out of LA for a minute preferably on a project.

Shortly after I began this practice I booked a play out of town. It was actually just at the base of a national park that I had always wanted to go to. On the show I became close with a cast mate. We had some bonding adventures. He has helped me to raise my awareness on a lot of issues I have let fall to the waist side in the last few years. I don't know if anything will come romantically (too soon to tell) but I feel very blessed to have this new person in my world. During the play I had an extremely challenging scene with in a scene. I basically had to beg for my daughters life to be spared and in the end pull a sword on my husband and threaten his life. It was from a Greek tragedy thus written in ancient text. I have always know I was meant to be a performer and I have done pretty good up till now. I have a lot of stage time under my belt. However, this show made me believe with out a doubt that I can bring it to every performance every time. Because that is exactly what I did all 9 shows and it was a difficult ass scene.  I have a new level of self belief that is living strong inside me. I think it will serve me well in the near future. With this random miracle of a show I got all three desires: the companion,  the courage and the vacation.

Now that I have taken this practice to the next level,  I feel I am in a position where I am utterly confident and %100 behind my abilities.  I can't wait to report with all the other amazing things I co-create with my higher power. I feel the love and guidance from my Angeles and I welcome their assistance. I am grateful for all my blessings and awakenings...  And I humbly ask for more!

Wow this is pretty awesome!

It has been a long time since I wrote in this blog. But so many things have been happening lately I feel the need to report and document them.  I have been working very hard to "Back Door" my way into the entertainment business. You see I am an aspiring Actress, Writer and Film maker. I was very discouraged by the lack of my ability to break into the industry. I know I am talented but was having a hard time getting others to see it and want to take a chance on me.  I kept hearing it's all about who you know. So I decided it would be my number one priority to meet people. I had an opportunity arise to work at a production company that specialized in Commercials. I had reached my limit with the service industry. I literally couldn't stand the thought of serving another drink to another drunken jerk. I had become bitter bartender!  I started praying for something else to arise.   So, when the opportunity arose to work in my field and meet people I jumped at it!  I started at the front desk answering phones then went freelance and developing good relationships with countless producers and directors. Unfortunately to do this I had to put auditioning on hold for a while. I decided to focus on networking and writing. I  just knew that in a year or so I would somehow be able to jump back into acting. At the end of my year off I signed up for a job I rarely take. It was to be a runner for a low budget Movie Of The Week for a major network. I was board to tears driving all over Los Angeles and complaining about the fact that I didn't want to stay in the production side of the industry for much longer. My best friend suggested a book on tape called " Excuses Be Gone" by Dr. Wayne Dyer.   This Cd works to program the mind to get rid of all self inflected mind blocks to your success. Upon the second or third time I listened to these Cds I really noticed a shift in my world. Since watching "The Secret," I have been one to visualize but for some reason the things I really wanted didn't seem to come.   These Cds helped me to rid my self of the self sabotaging thinking habits I have unknowingly carried with me my entire life! So here's what happened-
I am again visualizing what I want but now I am very specific with the pictures I am focusing on. I started in december  picturing myself in front of two cameras. I spend a few moments and take in the bounce and the boom mic in front of me just above the cameras. I hold this image in my mind and I come back to it every time I visualize. I don't spend hours on it just a few minutes almost everyday. With in weeks a job literally falls in my lap. I am covering the front desk at the production company that I started with a year ago.  My parents recently moved to San Diego so I didn't travel east this year and subsequently I was available to cover. I was not thrilled about working the week between the holidays (Xmass and New Years) because I just wrapped on the MOW and the hours kicked my ass.  But hey, money is money and I am not one to turn down an opportunity.  While I am there, the producer says asks me if I wanted to submit for the spot they were working on. It was a national commercial for a major phone company.  It was a man on the street type of project. I submitted to the agency and I was selected to shoot. The catch was that it was a nonunion rate unless they edited you into the final piece than you got a bump to SAG rates. This spot was going to be on 2 network channels and the web so the potential to make in one day what I made the entire last year combined was definitely on the table. I shot the interview along with 60 other actors.  As I was standing on my mark waiting for them to light the shot a beam of light reflected off one of the buildings causing me to shut my eyes. As they were closed the familiar visualization I had been focusing on popped into my head. When I opened my eyes to my surprise the scenario I had been visualizing was happening in front of me!! It was EXACTLY how I had been picturing it! HOLY CRAP!  The camera placement, the bounce and the boom mic were right there where I had been picturing them in my mind. I was astonished. I didn't let it effect me too much and I went on with the shoot. There were so many actors being interviewed for this 30 sec spot I didn't expect to make the final cut but something in my gut told me I would. Low and behold when it came down to it I made it in. I now have a national commercial out on 2 major networks just the thing I need to jump start my career!!  I didn't even go to the open call. I simply was asked to submit and the rest is history. I don't know where it's going to take me but I do know that I no longer have to worry about my bank account being overdrawn. That in it's self is a miracle.
Wish me luck.
Love,
Veronica